Ok, so today I am biting the bullet. I already told you about my mission but in order to make my mission real, and so that I really focus and get on with losing the baby bulge I need to bite the bullet. Inspired by the lovely Lauren over at The Wonderful Adventures Of Spud and Spike who wrote about her ‘Realisation’ and posted pictures of her before and after children, she was so brave that I felt I could be brave too.
For me being brave isn’t about taking a photo (although below is a couple of pics of my favourite ‘body’ and my current body) but more about confessing that I am a serial dieter, my weight has been up and down so many times. And so, here comes the brave part. As of this morning, the 1st August 2011, I weigh 11st 13lbs. There I said it, its out there, I weigh 11st 13lbs. So now, if I feel like eating rubbish I know that I have to report back and tell the world that I cheated, maybe this time I will find the lifestyle change that will work for me!
Me at my best Me now
After having C, I lost my weight pretty quickly and maintained at around 5lbs heavier than before I had him. When I fell pregnant with LissyLou I was determined not to put on any excess weight, to walk loads and be really healthy. Severe SPD saw off that notion and so not only was I extremely immobile, but I was also extremely fed up, and my best friend, good old food was a real comfort. So I piled on the pounds, and here I am, one mummy tummy later, feeling fed up! I fully expected to have a struggle this time round, but I secretly hoped that breastfeeding would help me to shift the tummy, but my love of food overtook the potential gains to leave me here.
Food has been my best friend for a very long time, I LOVE food, I love healthy food as well as naughty food. But naughty food talks to me, I can hear it tempting me and taunting me, it makes me happy and sad.
And why is it that once you make a conscious decision to eat better, and have smaller portions that you could happily eat everything in sight? It’s like I’m trying to sabotage myself before I even start!